Whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it’s very important that you do it ’cause nobody else will. Like when someone comes into your life and half of you says: “You’re nowhere near ready”. And the other half says: “Make her yours forever”.
You know I don’t really quote people, but the last 2 lines really jumped out at me.
My entries have started to bounce between you and the general, like I could be writing to anybody.
I’m just letting my mind and writing flow naturally.
Concentrating so much on JUST you, wasn’t the healthiest.
I need balance or my soul with shrivel up.
Those statements represent the battle I have within.
“You’re nowhere near ready.”
“Make her yours forever.”
Life’s all about timing and choices.
But good God, sometimes the choices aren’t so clear as to when the timing’s “right.”
Before, I thought I knew it all.
I thought, I could control my destiny just by my focus, desire and determination for the end result.
However, the division of our lives proves otherwise.
I haven’t been able to sleep properly since I’ve arrived in Holland.
I don’t mind so much, as I tend to find motivation to write when the world’s asleep
but, doesn’t help the painful, dulling headache I have throughout the day after being awake
during the hours my body naturally wants to sleep.
I found a box with a huge chocolate in it when I came into my hotel room today.
Tomorrow’s (the 6th of Dec) Saint Nicolas’ (Sinterklaas) birthday.
The Dutch celebrate on the eve of his birthday, today. (5th)
Festive family parties are thrown where gifts and surprises are exchanged.
(Hence, my chocolate)
Apparently, according to Dutch legend, he will spoil the children who were good
and take the BAD ones…
He’s from Spain, unlike Santa Claus who’s from the North Pole.
Wonder if he “Habla español??”
I gotta whiff of this tradition when I went to the supermarket.
Cashiers and shelf stockers were in costumes similar to this:
(Helpers – Zwarte Piet)
Kinda freaky actually when you aren’t expecting it!
Here’s a pic of Mr. Sinterklaas himself.
There are debates whether the Dutch are being racists making the “helpers” black…
but, another take from a friend of mine today is
they are black, cuz of all the soot in the chimneys.
Gonna try sleep or finish this movie I’m watching.
Yes, always romance flicks.
I told you, I’m a masochist.