I flow with my mind and my body.
If it says, drown yourself in copious amounts of substances, I do.
If it says, FEED me. I feed it when possible.
If it says, get out of bed and go run on a treadmill at 3 o’clock in the morning…
well, I’ll be running on a treadmill, again, when possible…at 3 o’clock in the morning.
If it says sleep, I sleep.
If it says I don’t want to, I don’t.
Unless I’m just being lazy, to where I’ll then push my non-desire away.
I flow with what comes naturally and everytime I’ve done that, I’ve been blessed.
I can’t explain my mind to you, but the closest people around me MIGHT be able to
give you SOME insight.
I do things crazy fast, and crazy efficient, but well. I take multitasking to HYPER speeds.
Unless, I’m stuck in a droned-out “depression.”
Which I take, as it is. Before I used to try and fight my way out…now I just allow the swings to come as they will.
I embrace them, and in turn, they embrace me back.
Tiz a sweet balance.
(I DON’T BELIEVE IN MEDS…to LOVE your mind – or anything – is to accept the good and the bad.)
I find my “down” stages are when I just need a break from the world.
Some “ME” time. Time to reflect, chill and be mindless.
Mindless, is good. Not mindless, without-direction activity…
but just “being” without outside forces combating your silence.
Think of it as the buddha-like meditation pose without being in the buddha meditation pose.
You don’t NEED to take your shoes off, pretzel-up your legs and make humming noises
to “ZEN OUT.”
Your mind needs to reset or else you fall into bad decisions because your “engine”
is being over worked and your thoughts become shady.
That’s if, some even THINK for a living.
Here’s my natural ebb and flow at the moment.
All my body’s craving is THIS.
Fruits, veggies, nuts, water…ONLY the good stuff.
I don’t wanna take in dairy, so I’mma finish off my last yogurts and then stop.
I was a vegan for 2 years back in the day.
I want to go back.
(It’s for health and for the animals)
I became one after picking up a pamphlet in NYC.
Was out with my vegan gf at the time at a vegetarian restaurant.
The pamphlet was: 101 Reasons to be a Vegetarian
(link at the bottom of blog incase you wish to read)
I had a flight out the next day, back to the Bahamas. 2.5 hour flight, nothing to read
EXCEPT my pamphlet!
Got off that flight, bought some proscuitto (last meal, one of my fav things) and stopped eating
I started again after watching a different gf GORGE herself in front of me.
She’s brazilian-dutch – and slender, one of those who can eat, not workout and never gain a pound – grew up in Portugal and London.
We met in boarding school and got together 10 years later.
(She was actually my first)
(She raped me of my “innocence.”)
So, when we went to the US, like most foreigners…
she “enjoyed” the food.
It started with Denny’s. Breakfast is one of my favorite meals.
And, one of my favorite things was the Denny’s Scram Slam.
My obsession started in Tampa when I was 17.
It’s not on the menu anymore, but they still make it on request.
It’s an omelet filled with all my favorite goodies.
I’d have it whenever I’d go to Denny’s, which wasn’t often. But I used to get that.
While we were in Florida, we’d go to Denny every morning
** we were there for 2 weeks or so **
(as it was right near where we were staying, plus…it’s DENNY’S! Mmmmmm.)
I’d sit and drink my coffee and just watch her.
Finally, I caved in and had a veggie omelet.
And like a drug, or sugar, or alcohol…it creates a reaction in your mouth, mind and tastebuds.
Eggs, are not flesh, but they are a form of something “living” in a way.
And from there…the flood gates opened. I became not only a meat eater…
but a meat LOVER.
But as with everything, once you ween off, your body doesn’t desire it anymore.
Like sugar, alcohol or smoking…
once your body gives it up, you naturally don’t desire it because of the way it reacts with your body.
When you start it again though…the memories flood back and you get pulled right back in.
I’ve been consuming more flesh than I should and too much alcohol lately.
(I tend to get lazy and fall off the bandwagon especially when I bounce around without pause.)
Which essentially = life’s outta control no time to breathe
Right now, I’ll take a break…as I said, I’ll STOP eating animals again…
once I’ve tried everything on this earth that’s currently being eaten.
China’s a big one to eat my way through.
But, like with my traveling…I just need to do my checkoffs.
Been there, done that…and move on.
Soon the majority of my travels will be done…
and then, I move on to the next sector of my life.
Whatever that may be…but…
I have a pretty good idea of what it is.
101 Reasons to be a Vegetarian:
A cool way to “zen” out. I have his on loop. My friend Diana shared this yesterday.
Sweet in visuals and sounds. Check it!
It helps structure my thought so it isn’t bouncing all over the place.
When I need to focus, that’s what I do. Find a song that “speaks” to me and play it on repeat.